Feeling FAT at a healthy weight. I hate my brain
So Now that I have lost a Billion pounds and Im healthy, I find it so interesting that i can feel fat, like 300lb Cody fat if i gain a little weight back, it’s so bizarre to me. I may gain a few pounds here and there and then lose it, but if Im like 195lbs I feel horrible about myself ,I feel like my clothes are tight and I feel totes unsexy. its like im back in my old fat body again, its such a mind over matter thing, it’s like my brain doesn’t know Im a 100lbs lighter, so if i say to myself cody you’ve gained weight, my brain says ok now go into fat cody body and I feel gross. It cracks me up How I used to say if i just lost 50 lbs then I would be happy, now Im a crazy girl about my weight. I feel Like I will always feel this way now, which I guess is good since it keeps me motivated to keep the weight off.
7 months ago